rAnDoMs

-shutting down this blog. do I or dont I? I dont update nearly as much as I used to. I mean to, but dont seem to make time for it. I like that I have had this blog for so long and I can go back and read old entries and pictures--and even better, I can read comments that my mom left forever ago. thank you internets for being so awesome!

 

-should I grow my hair out or keep it short. yes, I know this is a super important topic that you are all waiting with bated breath to hear about. I like short hair because I think its more flattering for my chubby face. and I like short styles. But then I think that I havent had long hair in a really, really long time. and then I ponder, self, maybe you're too old for long hair! is there a time frame for something like that? I dont mean long like to my butt crack. just to like my shoulders or a little past. hmm.

 

-do I look ghetto/stripper-esque with my zebra print acrylic nails? probably. not sure if I care or not though. I think I like them enough to do it again.

 

-why does my hairstylist refuse to call me back? I love her so and really dont want to find a new person.

 

-missing my crafty-ness. I think about it daily. and then move on to something else. sigh.

 

-on that note, I'm looking forward to Craft Lake City this month so I can oogle all the other people getting their craft on. and then be jealous of said crafting. and of course I'll say things like 'Ooh! I could totally make that!' and then never think of it again.

 

-feeling guilty because my dog is home alone all day. PS: the last job situation I mentioned did NOT last. so not surprised by that. I was the walking dead. on to greener pastures with just one job which I'm loving. so YAY (:

 

-sad that I dont really get to do BTS shopping. am I the only parent out there that actually LIKES buying new clothes and shoes for my kids? I mean, I do get to buy them new stuff, but its not cute in the least because they have to wear uniforms.. and olivia totally hates that. she is dying to to get some new trendy clothes. I could buy them anyway and she could wear them on the weekend. but thats so not the point.

 

-thinking about buying a new car and art and I just cant agree: car or truck?

I say car, because we would probably get better gas mileage from a car than a truck.

He says truck because then we could haul stuff around. (my thought: What stuff is this that needs hauling around?) I mean, we have somehow survived the last, I dont know, like 9 years without needing stuff hauled. And then he says what about when his mom needs stuff hauled? So then of course I counter with, 'You want to buy a truck in case your mom needs something moved?' LOL. see, this debate will never end.

 

**and this my friends, is the reason I am not sleeping at night. Well, okay. there are other things that I think about too. like I forgot to buy poptarts for the kids to have for breakfast. and that I need to get my dog a new chew toy for being so good all day. and what should we have for dinner for the rest of the week?  do the kids need laundry done? do I?

the stupid list never ends.

 

xoxo,

monica

 

 

 

 

Finally..

-who knew that it would still be freezing rain in the middle of may? Or is it the end of may now? Such awesome Utah weather.

-whats new? Well recently started a second job. Pay Is great. But lets be honest: I'm lazy. So Its very very questionable how long I'll be able to keep up this charade. I currantly work outside the home from 6pm to 12am..then come home and work until 2:30am, get the kids up for school at 7, then work till about 9 or 10am..then nap. Eat. Shower. Repeat.

-kids have like two weeks left of school. Can't decide if I'm excited or not lol

-i have a huge summer wishlist building up. One of those is a trampoline for the kidlets. Figure its been awhile since we've had any broken bones around here and we should do something about that. Ha!

-another list that keeps growing much to my chagrin is household items that need replaced. Like the water heater that is temperamental and will only heat up or stay lit when it feels like it. I think it has pms. Then the dryer decided it was going to strike as well and not turn. Awesome. Then today the lawnmower joined the union. Thankfully after the front was mowed. However the backyard is still a jungle. I told Art that it probably stopped working because it was pissed off for not being used often enough.  :p

-funny thing that happened this weekend; took the kids to the living traditions festival,  lots of fun free stuff to do. We were walking around after Olivia had gotten a henna tattoo (which she was annoyed with because she kept getting her sleeve in it) and I hear her say "that's nice. That's REAL nice." I turn around to see why she's being so snarky -- then I see it. Bird poop. On her shoulder. I laughed. And laughed. Which in turn caused her to cry and tell me that she was ready to go home. Now. Lol. I only was laughing at her comment. Oh well. She survived.

-the pictures are from Saturday after they made some Mexican paper flowers. Olivia refused to smile. Per usual. Le sigh.

Xoxo
Monica

.broken hearts suck ass.

i need to ramble. i've contemplated about whether or not i should i blog about this. its been on my mind and heart for a long time. i've wanted to talk about it. i need to talk about it. get it off my chest and just out there. but i think art just doesnt understand. or maybe he does, but cant comfort me in the way i need. my mom would understand. she would know the right thing to say. she always did, even if wasnt really words, just quiet understanding.

i've recently lost someone close to me. maybe thats not the right wording. no one died, but a relationship did...so i guess i'm mourning that the way i would as if someone had passed. i lost my bff. people change. priorities. differences happen. it stung. shocked me. i felt that i had found my person. she WAS my person. is. i dont think i've been this hurt over a friendship..well..ever.

it was me. it was her. it doesnt matter.. the only relevent thing is that i've felt lost since then. i second guess everything i say and do. i question whether or not i'm being nice, supporting and encouraging or even friendly enough to the people in my life..  i worry that i keep my mouth shut when really i should be supporting--i worry i shouldnt be supporting or giving advice, and that i should just mind my own business. but then i feel weird for being so quiet. everything feels all wrong. i've never worried about what i said or how i react to things so much before; i'm so self conscience now. i have no self esteem. i feel like i'm not worthy of being friends with anyone. this one person, my bestie--she knew me better than anyone in the world, probably better than i knew myself. i cant help but feel that because of that, who i am, that that is the reason we are no longer friends. i have been shaken to my very core. i am re-thinking everything, how i dress, what i find funny, who i spend time with, where i go..how i speak, what i think. i miss her. i miss us. i am lonely and sad all too often. and i remember once again what is like having to make new friends again. how hard it is as an adult, trying so hard to be accepted. hoping that someone will see something in me that they will like and fearing they wont see anything at all that is appealing to them. i hate this. self loathing. this isnt me, but yet i can think of nothing else. sometimes i tell myself its like that saying, that people are in your life sometimes for a reason or season, or whatever gay thing it says. you know which one i'm talking about? anyways. i've been having a hard time adjusting. not having that one person i can spill everything to. good things and bad. that person i can let my guard down with, and just be silly and goofy..its thrown me off. but i'm hopeful. i'm hopeful that i will find myself again, and maybe not be too worried about how others see me. true friendship. i'm positive i'll find it again.

xoxo

always playing catch up

-its not as if i lead an ultra exciting and busy life. because i dont. i think its pretty average. yet, i'm still unable to bring myself to pull up my chair and write my thoughts down for a few minutes. and in all actuality, i'm already sitting here, usually working, so its not like i'd be going out of my way, turning on the computer, etc. ah well. what counts is that, today, i'm blogging..so the let the updating commence!

-art lost his job about a month ago. totally shocked. kinda still am. but, it might just have a silver lining. we've been talking about him going to school, which is always a good thing.

-i chopped all of mayas beautiful waist length hair off--to just above her shoulders. i was really terrified that she was going to regret it the second i cut it; she's so wishy washy sometimes, the way only 7 year old girls can be. anyways, she LOVES it. phew!

 exhibit A:

i think it came out super cute, and i think it kinda reminds me of Selena Gomez' hair when she went short, no?

-been purging a ton of my scrapbook stuff. again. and this time, its actually really going to leave my house. yay! the awesome thing about purging, is that it makes me miss being crafty. i miss getting paint and glue all over me. and seeing bits of papers all over the floor. i miss it, so therefore, i am trying to get back into it. i even did like 3 pages in one night. i think i even almost forgot how to use my scanner. that was an adventure, hehee.

-on the note of scrapbooking, is my mom, of course. i dont think i ever realized just how much she influenced me. always cheering me on, and exclaiming over my accomplishments, gushing about how cute the girls were, noting where she could see improvements in my craft of the moment. she was amazing. she made me feel amazing. and good. i think it just now really hit me as i'm typing this; i did it for her as much as i was doing it for myself. maybe she was just being a good mom by complimenting me, and egging me to do more. whatever it was, it worked. and now i dont seem to find the same joy in creating as i did before. sounds pretty vain, now that i'm typing it. i guess its the truth though. i always loved knowing that she loved looking at all the silly pictures i take of the girls, or showing her my latest page. i loved her input, and now its gone, so now i just dont even try. which means i havent taken many pictures in the last year and a half. bottom line i'm trying to get through to myself, via this post--i miss my mom. i dont want to scrapbook things she has missed. its my way of making time stand still. everytime i glue a photo to paper, i think of her. so maybe, i'm really just robbing myself of memories...hmm. food for thought, yes.

-so, for those of you out in blogland, this IS still a scrapbooking blog. i promise. i still love the craft, the art, the passion. its still in me.

xoxo

monica

so..

-i tried to blog from my phone. had this nifty little app, thought it would save me time. i could blog in bed! while i'm making dinner! i thought, man, that would be rad. because then i could blog all the time. well, maybe not all the time, but more than 3x a year LOL
..but apparantly, it doesnt like me to try post photos. and i dont like blogging without them. i feel like my posts are way more exciting when there is something else to look at besides words...so back to the drawing board, i guess.

-actually might send out xmas cards this year. maybe. my friend, katie, is responsible for this. did you know that you can do photo cards at walmart? who knew?? i mean, for the last 2 weeks i've been flip flopping on designs at picnik, as well as some i had for photoshop. but i just wasnt digging any of them. and then voila! her's arrived in my mailbox..and there ya have it. my cards are designed, easy peasy. so maybe, just maybe, you'll get one., you know, *if* i have your address, and *if* i actually can find my stamps. heres what it might look like if you do get one:

-oh, and i was definitely lazy about this. as if waiting until like 2 weeks before xmas to order cards is no indication..we didnt even have time to take a photo of all 4 of us, in the same pic, at the same time. yeah i know. i'm rad. dont hate. anyways, had to do a compilation of photos i already had..except for the one of me and art. do you know the last picture of art and i together is from about..i dont know, 4 years ago?? geez. and we've never taken a formal family photo either. yep. thats right. NEVER.

-also, related, is that i havent started xmas shopping. i mean, why do it now, when i can wait until the last 2 days. that way most of what my kids want is sold out..so my choices are made for me, i just buy whatever is left! hahaha. totally kidding. i think i actually do a better job at last minute shopping, i think. and my kids are never disappointed. except maybe this year they might be. they both want DSi's. personally, i dont think they are responsible enough yet. i mean, i had a DS, and maya used to stand on it. yes, you read that right. opened up, STANDING on it. i'm not paying $179 for a STEP. hell no. i am contemplating caving and buying a Wii though. this way we can all play. oh, hell, who am i kidding? i'm so translucent, of course i just want it for me :) especially since they have that new 'old' mario out. and its 4 players, so see, maybe i'll play with the kids. if they're good. and they're room is clean. maybe.

anyways..thats all for me. i'm supposed to be working. ssssh. dont tell on me!
xoxo
monica

It was winter...

*so far, I'm loving that it hasn't snowed much. It did a little a couple weeks ago..but it melted pretty quickly.

*speaking of seasons, why do leaves have to fall off trees?? Its damn torture raking that crap up. Luckily, I only had to do our front yard because art has a leaf vacuum. Its Rad.

*Mayas 7th birthday is in a couple weeks. I can't believe my baby is growing up.. and she only wants a dsi. And dolls. And a giant doll house. That's all though. Haha.

*thinking I might actually send out Xmas cards this year. I know shocking. And, I might even put up our tree soon..ya know instead of waiting until 2 days before Xmas.

That's all I got.
Xoxo,
Monica

such a slacker

*first off, my regrets for not posting more frequently. blogging seems to have taken the back burner lately.

*the kids are still alive. and kicking. and screaming. and giggling.

*art and i just had our 9 year anniversary on wednesday. holy cow i'm old!!

:::anyways heres a small recap of the goings on in the gonzalez household:::

*spent some time here enjoying the scenery

*also did the obligatory photo with pumpkins while at gardner village

*and the kids dressed up all scary for halloween..but i didnt upload those photos LOL
maybe next time :D

xoxo

randoms..

--i really love this picture i took at the fair. not so much the bald dude with sunglassess, but whatevs.

--how i know i'm old:: the last few times i drank, admittedly too much..it now takes me 2-3 days to recover. ouch. PS:: tequila=no bueno

--currently obsessed with nail polish, specifically sephora by opi's metro chic. <3

but i also love lincoln park after dark.

--so excited about fall being just around the corner. makes me want to cook and bake and clean the house. i think art is probably excited about this prospect as well. heehee.

--saw boys II men in concert last friday. they sound exactly.the.freaking.same. wth? then they went on to say that they've been together for 19 years. wha?? yeah. like i needed another reminder about just how old i am. sheesh. yes, i did take pictures. and a video. and they all suck ass. i hate my camera. i have *one* picture that might be freaking legible. wait, is that the right word? who knows. anyway, i'll post those next time i blog. so..like in 2 months lol.

--also, i've been doing some fall window shopping. ahh.. how i love to spend money. however, i'm going to try to be very, very good and not get too much new stuff. we'll see. i'm trying to tell myself that i need want what i have and not what i dont. i know theres some kind of like saying thats like that. but i cant think of it off hand. you get the idea.

--and since i'm trying to be all like budget wise and shizz, i'll maybe do a post of my favorite fall findings again. like i did with the spring stuff. only because i need a reason to blog :D

xoxo

once a year..

went to the fair yesterday..here is what we did:

-had pizza, philly cheesesteak, hot dogs, churros, slurpees, deep fried twinkies & caramel apples

-watched the girls having a blast inside all the fun houses and sliding down ginormous slides

saw the strangest things ever, thanks to art, who indulged me and actually paid for me to see all of it =)

*worlds smallest woman (really just a dwarf. with dreads. i was disappointed. i dont know what i expected though)

*worlds smallest horse (a pony? lol. the sign said it was only 10inches tall when it was born. hmph.)
*a snake with a head of a beautiful girl (hahaha. yeah right. it was an old lady with a head sticking out of a platform. no snake body. oh yeah, and i think she smoked. her voice was really raspy, and the girls were too afraid to talk to her hahahaha)

*2 nosed cow (yes , really)

*6 legged steer

*2 headed cat (in a jar. gross.)

anyways..a good time was had by all..and my feet still hurt. and the sham wow guy..there is almost always the same hot british guy there. yeah..not this year :( i was sad. and didnt buy any this time lol.

xoxo

i know, i know.

*i'm a horrible blogger. i can admit that. and admitting it is half the battle, right?

*summer went too fast. so many things i still didnt get to do..like, camping. i tried to convince art. but he wasnt feeling it. maybe next year?

*cut my hair. colored it. had to get rid of the purple. i mean, i'm so 3008 and that hair was so 2008. hehe. so yeah. now, my hair is black on top..red on the bottom. and i have super short fringe-y bangs. love it. makes me feel kinda fresh, modern. its nice.

*been playing with www.rollip.com love it. almost as much as i love www.picnik.com
almost. but..i guess it would help if i took some damn pictures every once in while.

*speaking of which..i'm contemplating going to the sb expo. yeah i said sb expo. i mean, i havent scrapped since like, what, february? so what.

*something random: i often blog in my head at night, when i'm supposed to be going to sleep. i have all these rad things to blog..and then yeah. the next day, not so much. what gives?
i wish i had something witty or interesting to talk about it. but yeah...nope.

until next time..
xoxo

dedicated to you, mom

one year ago today, you left this world. left all the pain and hurting behind. i've dreaded this day, for weeks..maybe months. the thoughts of you lying there, hurting, and there was nothing i could do, but to hold your hand and whisper i love you's in your ear. let you know that you werent alone.

i contemplated making a list of things that you've missed in this year that youve been gone. but i decided against it. this is a list of things that will forever remind me of you--whether they are movies, sayings or smells. you're always with me.

*the smell of your hair (pantene)
*the color green
*the ocean
*13 going on 30
*bon jovi
*playing air guitar and drums while jamming out to poison's 'talk dirty to me'
*willy wonka
*cher
*refrigerated ding dongs
*terms of endearment
*my hands
*sunday night pot roast
*tuna fish with pickles
*xmas fudge and popcorn balls
*steel magnolias
*yellow vw bugs
*big fluffy clouds
*merle norman makeup
*sayings like 'tushie, mommala, bubba,oy vey, the bomb, oh my god!, jesus christ!, its all good
*scrapbooking, painting ceramics, making handmade soaps
*yard/garage sales
*chai teas on lazy sundays
*the tv show roseanne
*feathered bangs (took me years to convince you to change your style!)
*online contests, ads and games (you were always a sucker for free stuff)
*the smell of coffee brewing
*tone soap
*bobs big boy
*pink sugar perfume (the only kind you ever liked me to wear because it didnt bother your asthma)
*girly girl time with olivia and maya. a daily tradition you started with the girls, that i try to continue with them

i hope that you are peaceful..that you are enjoying watching the girls grow up, that you are with your mom; i hope you know that you are missed every second of the day.
LGP 12/30/58-08/02/08

xoxo

'member? you 'member!

*turned 31 last week. or as i like to call it "the one year anniversary of my 30th bday"

*had a fabulous party that art threw for me. it was a sort of surprise. sort of.

*i 'member parts of it. some i dont. thats how you know i had a good time :D

it took me until monday to feel normal. damn jello shots and pineapple vodka. oh yeah..and that empty stomach of mine.

*i got every single thing i wanted for my bday. yes, i'm spoiled. and by everything single thing, i mean that everyone i wanted at my party, showed up. i am loved :)

*speaking of ppl i love that came to my party: miss marissa is one of them. love her to bits. and i miss her already.

*also, on an unrelated note: sunday morning/afternoon we discovered that our toilet seat was broken. another sign that the party was great, i think.

*um..lets see. my hair is still purple..but it still doesnt photograph well as witnessed below:

its way brighter in person. lame.

*i really dig blogging bullet style. so much easier than forming actual paragraphs. i mean, who does that anyway?

xoxo

monica

things on my mind as of late

*this summer is going by too fast. scratch that. this entire year is.

*olivia turned 8, yet is acting 18. pffft.

*im missing my mom more than ever.

*the one year anniversary of my 30th bday is just days away..

*this time of year is proving more difficult than i expected. or its exactly what i expected.

*i miss scrapbooking, yet cant bring myself to do anything about it. it hurts too much to put down on paper everything that my mom has missed this year.

*being a dog owner is rewarding and sweet..but also annoying, 24/hr maintenence. im lazy..so you can imagine how much i enjoy being at sugar's beckon call.

*i desperately want a new phone, yet dont want to pay for it. specifically the mytouch 3g. its identical software wise, yet waaaaay hotter than my g1. as an aside, why why why cant tmobile have 3g in my area?? ps: thank god for wi-fi.

*addicted to watching makeup tutorials on youtube.
*also addicted to MAC. its sad that the girls at the nordies counter know carolyn and i when we go in.

*seriously considering taking makeup artist classes next year.

*part of my hair is a bright purple, would love to post pics, yet my camera doesnt think thats a good idea.

*playing freecell before i go to sleep seems to help me wind down. i find this strange.

xoxo,
monica

stuff..

finally updating. i know. sorry its taken so long...but i'm a procrastinator extreme!

*we got a new doggie. her name is sugar, and she's a cocker spaniel. super loveable and sweet..and super teething. but shes great with the kids :)

*maya graduated from kindergarten! it was a really cute program, of which we missed most of due to other inconsiderate parents :P

*olivia is officially a 3rd grader! omg. where has the time gone??

*11 is the number of days until olivia is 8. shoot me now. i'm so ooooooold.

*working at home again, full time. shoot me 2x. because i'm now home with 2 kids, 1 puppy and i'm trying to actually work on top of that?? yeah..we'll see who actually survives the summer ahahahaha.

*sims3 now rules most of my free time. so rad.

*no scrapbooking lately. its too hard. its a hard time of year. everytime i try..it just reminds me that she's gone. i have a hard time even wanting to photograph anything..making memories without her=heartbreaking :(

*blogging in list form is actually easier than forming real sentences. i must remember that the next time i update :)

xoxo


p.s.... i apologize for the craptactular photos..i'm too damn lazy to edit them (see list above ^^ as to how i spend free time now)

uhh..what? **warning..long story**

so on wednesdays, we've been watching my nephew play baseball at the park by our house. its been really fun(i think i love the hot dogs and fries the best), and its nice to do something fun with the kids during the week. anyways, so we're sitting in the bleachers, watching the game, when all of a sudden there is this ginormous crash--definitely a car accident. btw, we live on a super duper busy street, so accidents happen here and there. but when I heard it, I was like, omg, that sounds like its right in front of our house! so art goes running out to the street to check out, and comes back. says he didnt see anything.

so we go on watching the game. about a half hour later I decide its time for me to go home and start dinner, so I bring the kids with me so they could get ready to shower as well. typically, I go in our front door, but for some reason when we left, we used the back door, so thats where I went. I get inside, I'm making dinner(tacos), and watching the very last episode of Friends..which I havent seen since the original airing years ago--so I'm totally enthralled in watching Rachel and Ross get back together lol. Olivia comes running 0ver and tells me there is someone at the door, which I didnt hear bc the tv was up loud; so its my neighbor. He speaks spanglish--which I'm not too fluent in. He's asking if we are okay, and then points to the street saying something about an accident. I tell him, that yes we're fine, we'd heard the accident, but didnt see anything. at this point, I'm kinda confused, bc we werent in the accident, so I dont know why hes asking if we are ok.

anyways, he goes on, saying something about his wife crying--and then he points to his house. thats when I see it. our fence. its on the ground. i'm like..uhh what? so I go outside, and there is their F150, IN my house. yeah, IN it. I'm still not quite sure how it happened, but she drove through my fence, into the house, where our bedroom is. Thankfully she is fine, no one was injured (save for the fence and house). now the fun part. it seems that he doesnt want to go through the insurance. which, would be his auto insurance. we called our home owners ins. ppl, and they said that they cant do anything. I'm kinda pissed, bc the guy is saying that he wants to fix it himself--which, hey, if he were a licensed contractor or something, I'd be all for. but I'm pretty sure hes not. I know he does do lots of stuff around his house, but that isnt good enough to me. anyways, I'm all stressed out--I mean, there isnt like a ton of damage inside; the wall is cracked right where my window sits, so the sill is like coming apart, I guess. the crack goes all the way down to the baseboard, right where our outlet is at. Its not exposed to the outside though, so I guess thats good. but what if the frame is all jacked up or something? i keep going through what if's. urgg. so, that was my week..and here are pics of all the excitement. oh, and as an aside, he moved the truck before I could get pics of it actually in my house. lame.

uh..yeah.

so, real life keeps getting in the way of all the things i'd rather be doing. work. play. work and play some more. so goes it, right?

little recap of the goings on here:

-maya is officially a redneck. just kidding. she just recently lost both of her top front teeth though, so she definitely resembles one lol. she even got to partake in a little photoshoot, highlighting such tooth loss, as witnessed above ^^

-olivia is doing great in school, sassy as ever. i swear that child is 25 and not 7, ha!

-art has been working lots, so i dont see him much, and when i do, hes usually preoccupied with his new BB 8900. happy early fathers day!

-i've been suffering from severe allergies, mostly in my eyes. its horrible. i've been taking allergy pills, as well as using drops. but still, its a PITA! i miss being able to wear eyeshadow without watery stains on it hahahaha. gross.

-here are some more pics of the photoshoot i mentioned before. tina in the same mommy group as i am, and she is just amazing! i loved watching her work with maya. anyways, here is her blog, definitely check her out if youre local to SLC.

this one of olivia and I, can I just tell you, bribing a 7yo is serious business! we tried bribing her with McD's, baskin robbins. nada. she wasnt interested in the least. finally she agreed to ONE picture, and it had to be with me. lame.

but, i have to say, she does look beautiful!

i'm off to get some work done, maybe. and hopefully to get my hair did. hehe.

xoxo

monica

and then..

so the MM warehouse sale. i got the carousel for $10. i was so stoked. and it looks lovely on my desk. dare i say, that i actually need more stuff to put in it? lol. i walked out of there with 4 items: the carousel, an album and 2 rubons/stickers. thats it. i know, crazy. i usually get ribbons and stuff, but i was on a strict budget that day, and it worked out. i dont feel like i missed out on anything great, except for maybe the slice, bc they had those for $99. oh well. maybe next year.

lets see..oh yeah. i scrapped. and i've been doing the LOAD at 2peas again. its nice seeing friendly and familiar faces there still. i hate that at sistv, i dont really recognize anyone anymore. so i guess 2peas will be my new/old home again. we'll see if i can keep up with the LOAD lol.

also, i got PSE 7..and i have no clue what i'm doing. i'm trying to get better at editing, but i'm not sure where to begin. I was okay with PSE 4, but its been about a year since i've used it..i've been just using Picnik, which is fine, but there are a ton of actions i'd love to put to use...so i've been spending a lot of time online trying to find tutorials to help me along the way.

well, its nice out, so the kids are having otter pops and playing outside. think i'll go join them :)

xoxo

umm..

so i scrapped the other day. i've had this serious urge to ever since art and i rearranged my little scrap area. i sit here everyday and work, and whilst i'm working, i glance to the right..see the beautiful light streaming through my windows--gorgeous. and, it highlights all my thickers hanging on my clip it up! hahahahaha. i think thats the real reason i want to scrap, the thickers beckon me. and, can you believe that i actually used stamps on this damn thing? apparantly in the sunlight, i found out that i own a lot of stamps LOL. i'm sooo not a stamper, but i do like to collect them. theyre so pretty and hard to resist.

so, since i've been wanting to sb, it also makes me want new stuff---which is perfect timing bc the MM warehouse sale starts this saturday. i'm so there. i'm going in search of one of these:

the carosel. sigh..i've coveted this for years. i think the original i wanted was a pottery barn version. they do typically have these at the sales, but its still like $25, which is a lot of money for me to drop on 1 item. i'm a bargain hunter. last year, i got one of the rolling totes, it looks like this:

except mine is lime green. the inside is black with white polka dots. sooo freaking cute. anyways, i guess they retailed around $89-$199 depending on options and what all was inside. i got mine for $20!! thats the kind of deal i'm talkin about! the only unfortunate thing with the sale is that they really dont have any of their newer lines there. its mostly old foam stamps, paints, metal embellies--but they do have their ribbons for a good deal. so, i mostly go for tools and ribbons lol.

i think that might be enough ramblings for now..i'm off to find a new online home. i feel so weird posting my LO's at sis, or even at 2peas. i mean, i think i feel more at "home" at 2peas, bc i still recognize the ppl there, but i havent posted in the pub in over a year. the thing with sis, is that i like the notifications of my faves and when they post new LO's. i dont know what to do, but if i do start sb'ing more often, i defintely need to find somewhere. i feel homeless hahahaha. its like i became an online hermit. is that possible? lol.

anyways, happy greys day!

xoxo

day dreaming...

i havent been able to focus much lately. i blame the gorgeous spring weather utah is having :)
so, i've been window shopping online..and you know, its not easy being a fat girl and dressing cute/trendy/fashionable. seriously..as far as B&M stores go, I can like shop at about 4: Target, Old Navy, Lane Bryant and Torrid. and come on, seriously? i'm only 30, and LB's stuff is just not my style. though i do get my undies there. torrid--I think they have *some* things i like, but again, not really my style. so that leaves Target and Old Navy. not a whole lot of selection. Why can't forever 21 sell my size? or urban outfitters? is the solution here really for me to stop being fat? LOL. maybe. but until then, I'd like to look cute...so i browsed around some places online, and i thought I'd share my spring wishlist :)

all of the clothes posted are plus size..just an fyi

**some of them i dont remember where i found, but i looked at alloy, delias,target, old navy, and etsy.

so..denim. my bestfriend. right now, i'm really loving skinny jeans. i know, i know. i swore i'd never wear them, but i actually love them--i dont think that they look too bad on me. found these ones at alloy i think--but old navy has cute ones too.

dark denim bermudas--actually, any kind of bermuda i'm really loving.

and love love the distressed roughed up look of these:

I found this tunic over at etsy..she has them in all different colors/designs. check out her shop:

rainbowswirlz

love this back!

navy blue has been my secret love for the past 3 years--im so happy to see it popping up all over the place now. this is at old navy.

and my favorite staple: long lean tanks. perfect alone or layered. especially in this pinkish/salmon color. so hot.

again, with the grey..and some navy thrown in. found this at delias

this one is from a local retailer, but they have an online store as well. they have the simplest, easy going styles. i saw this dress on display at one of their stores, and i really really want it. like now. find them here : downeast basics

now for my favorite part of the list: accessories and shoes :)

i've been looking for a necklace like this forever. i'm not big on necklaces, but i love the simple, long design of this one. check out shopbop if you like it :)

these earrings i found at downeast basics, they were $5. no lie. i love them and wear them with everything. theyre a dark wood, i know you cant really tell in the pic.

these are my sunglass, they are jessica simpson--i think they are normally about $50, but i found them at TJ Maxx for $14.99 love a bargain :)
and these are earrings i've been looking for all over the place, and i wish i could find something like this locally.

a lot of the shoes that ive posted are going to be either Jessica Simpson or Fergie. and if they arent...then i dont know where i found them LOL. these ones are JS

i would wear these with some ripped up denim bermudas, and that yellow shirt up, and the feather earrings.

also JS.

JS

Fergie
*as a side note, i didnt even know she had shoes until yesterday. lol. but i love them :)


i would marry this color if i could. and i love juicy's leather purses. they are always so comfy on the shoulder

and this little gem i found at urban outfitters. love this brown carmel color. and the pockets.



okay, i think i'd better wrap up this post..its gotten awfully long and i didnt even post all the shoes/bags i love hehehe. but, i do still have to work today..so maybe i'll post more next week :)

xoxo

happy weekend!!

ps---i read an article in the LA times yesterday that forever 21 is coming out with a plus size line launching in May! can't wait for it!