today

my mom called with not so good news. the dr. confirmed that she

does indeed have ovarian cancer. they found a large tumor..and said

that her ovaries are covered in masses. a hysterectomy will have to

be done, followed up by chemo/radiation. i'm just at a loss.

i didnt know what to say to her. shes my mom. shes supposed

to be invinciable. i mean, i know, thats not true. but come on.

shes only 48. i'm not ready to lose her. i can't remember the last

time i hugged her. or smelled her hair. i just wish i could

be there with her...hold her. cry in her arms. have her cry in mine.

but instead, we are crying on the phone. i just feel so..helpless.

i dont know how to comfort her when i am so afraid of what will

happen.

so please, keep her in your thoughts/prayers.

i've been in this weird funk the last few days. i dont know if its

that i knew that bad news was coming or what. i mean, i just

feel off. i even went to the sb expo this weekend..and while i did

get some screamin deals--i just didnt feel like, in the mood. it

was weird. and, not only did i get good deals, but appearantly,

i made it pretty far in a contest i entered. last i heard i made it

to the top 10 for the best of show. but um..yeah. no one seems

to know who won or who was even in charge of deciding who won etc.

so yep. thats fancy schmancy.

anyways, i hope to be in a better mood in a few days :(

here is a layout i did the other day with the scrapologie kit. i know

the pic sucks..but yeah. oh well lol.