Monday, April 16, 2007

today

my mom called with not so good news. the dr. confirmed that she
does indeed have ovarian cancer. they found a large tumor..and said
that her ovaries are covered in masses. a hysterectomy will have to
be done, followed up by chemo/radiation. i'm just at a loss.
i didnt know what to say to her. shes my mom. shes supposed
to be invinciable. i mean, i know, thats not true. but come on.
shes only 48. i'm not ready to lose her. i can't remember the last
time i hugged her. or smelled her hair. i just wish i could
be there with her...hold her. cry in her arms. have her cry in mine.
but instead, we are crying on the phone. i just feel so..helpless.
i dont know how to comfort her when i am so afraid of what will
happen.
so please, keep her in your thoughts/prayers.
i've been in this weird funk the last few days. i dont know if its
that i knew that bad news was coming or what. i mean, i just
feel off. i even went to the sb expo this weekend..and while i did
get some screamin deals--i just didnt feel like, in the mood. it
was weird. and, not only did i get good deals, but appearantly,
i made it pretty far in a contest i entered. last i heard i made it
to the top 10 for the best of show. but um..yeah. no one seems
to know who won or who was even in charge of deciding who won etc.
so yep. thats fancy schmancy.

anyways, i hope to be in a better mood in a few days :(
here is a layout i did the other day with the scrapologie kit. i know
the pic sucks..but yeah. oh well lol.

6 comments:

Nikki said...

I am so sorry Monica. I will keep a prayer in my heart for your mom. It does seem like it doesn't matter how old we get, we always need our moms.

~~Nik

Shirley said...

GIANT HUGS and P&PT heading out to all of you....

magpie9759 said...

Praying for your mom, and for you. Love the way you speak about her. It's clear she means the world to you. Hope she gets a miracle!

*~*Jocelynne*~* said...

Aww, sorry about your mom Monica! That is just awful!

Nicole said...

monica...i'm so sorry for what you're going through right now. i lost my dad 12 years ago, and it was the hardest thing i've ever done in my life. but you know what? you'll be all right...and just be there for her, because she needs you now more than ever.

my thoughts are with you, girlie...

nicole (brains32192 from 2peas LOAD)

NancyJones said...

IM so sorry about your mom. I will keep her and your family in my prayers.