Monday, September 22, 2008

Missing her..

lots on my mind the last few days. Its been just over a month since
losing my mom, but it feels like an eternity. Sometimes I wish I didn't
think about it all the time--and at others, its shocking to me to
realize she's actually gone.

I went to the sb expo this weekend with some friends, and I actually
scrapped. Its been months since I've actually even felt remotely
creative..it was nice to feel it again. I did a couple pages of my mom,
trying to remember the last few times we were together, how I felt and
what I miss most. In fact, one of the photos is my mom & I hugging in
the hospital--I'm so grateful that Carolyn captured it, because its the
last real hug I remember her and I sharing. I keep waiting for the pain
to lessen, and strangely it just seems to be getting more intense,
especially at night when I'm trying to sleep. I miss her so much, and
luckily I dream of her often.

Well this post seems to be a bit of a downer..so I'm off to finish
watching CSI Miami :)

Xoxo

7 comments:

Myrna said...

Beautiful, Mo.

Katie said...

Those are really nice Mo. I'm so sorry you're going through this. You'll never forget her or any of the things she went through, but I promise that one day the pain will start to fade. Many hugs. I'm here if you need anything.

Chasity Grace said...

your new layouts are powerful and beautiful. sending you lots of hugs!!!

Linda Rodriguez said...

Such beautiful layouts. I'm so so sorry for your loss. Losing a parent is one of the hardest things in the world. I lost my dad 13 years ago, and the pain is not as intense, but I still miss him so much. {{hugs}}

Carrie K said...

thank you for sharing. you are going to be so grateful you are capturing your thoughts now while they are still raw.

i know how hard those final pictures are to scrap...and you have done a beautiful job.

peace and happy memories to you...

BlessedChaos x4 said...

beutiful LO's.
sending a cyber hug. :)

Katie said...

Awesome scrapbook pages Monica! I love that picture of you and your mom hugging, that is so sweet. I'm glad you're getting back into the scrapbooking thing. Hope you're doing good, hang in there. :)